Hello my lovelies I hope you will join me over on my new blog
Hope to see you all there!!!
Much love to you all!!
Monday, August 26, 2013
Monday, July 8, 2013
Changes!
Moving on can be such a momentous time... In this case it is a time to refresh and get clarity. So much has happened over the last week. Lots of hurtful things have been said, with one person at the butt of it all. Do I feel this person deserves it? Not at all...
Do I think this person started something with good intentions? Absolutely...
Was she in over her head? Yes... Everything happens for a reason and I believe she will become a stronger individual for it.
What does this have to do with me you may say! Well so much negativity has a person reevaluating things and what direction they want to go in. In my case it has fueled my fire...
Am I ok with what has happened to me over the last 6 months... No and Yes it has me moving on...
Am I sad for what that one person started in my life and others? Yes I feel sorry for them, they are very a self minded individual and have a lot of growing to do. I feel for them and hope they can find peace...
What is next for me? Well blogging more, taking care of myself for the first time in 37 years. The sad part that has come out of this is my distrust of others... Hopefully over time this will change. For now though there is that one person that seems to show up in all I do, trying to be bigger and better than me and everyone else, but I no longer let that bother me. I tried to reach out and there was nothing there... No apology nothing I now know that I did the right thing by severing ties I am just sorry that it affected others.
I know this is a random post but my blog is about my thoughts and my moving on and I needed to write this for me, so I can come back and read where it all changed and where my strength returned!!
Goodbye Facebook, goodbye person... Hello future!!!
❤❤❤❤ to all and peace... Deep Breath and Breathe!!!! The future is not written so make it count! 
Love is everywhere... you just have to look!
Wednesday, May 1, 2013
Apothecary Circle Giveaway
Laura Emily is giving away one seat of the Apothecary Circle. ($99 value). If you are already a member she is going to refund your cost on your invoice of the Apothecary Circle. Multiple ways to enter several times to increase your chance to win.
Sunday, March 10, 2013
New Beginnings and Awesome Music
My list of new beginnings for the next month:
- Spend more time outside (rain or shine)
- Connecting with the Earth beneath my feet
- Play more Music
- Meditation
- More Dancing
- New Dreads :)
- More Photos
- More Apothecary learning (apothecary circle... join us!!)
- More Art
- CONNECTING!
“Thousands of tired, nerve-shaken, over-civilized people are beginning to find out going to the mountains is going home; that wilderness is a necessity...” - John Muir
How true this is!!!
Friday, February 1, 2013
Refresh and New Lives
So much has happened since my last post? Life has a funny way of changing things up when you think they are on the way down!
So what happened? you may ask... well I cannot say much about it YET, but it will be a wonderful change for my whole family if it happens so stay tuned. Either way it has given me new perspective so if nothing comes of it the positive is already here!!
"I am an optimist. It does not seem to be much use being anything else." - Winston Churchill
How true this quote has become for me!
My wonderful husband knew just what I needed to get some life back in this crazy brain of mine and took us all on a drive about to take photos... what a great way to refresh my head!
My wonderful husband knew just what I needed to get some life back in this crazy brain of mine and took us all on a drive about to take photos... what a great way to refresh my head!
I have found new love for bridges, all the wonders they hold by just looking at them. Magnificent beasts of metal towering high. How they hold so many lives every second of everyday...
and trains... all that they hold within, not knowing what they hold inside has such an amazing feel to it! long stretches of railroad that go on and on for miles!
Finishing off my photos is this picture I took at sun down on January 31st. Mother Nature never ceases to amaze me...
(freaky face in the clouds!!)
Monday, January 14, 2013
Lost...
What happens when you realize that you are hated by your narcissistic mother and everyone else that you have opened your life up to take what they need and then leave taking all friends with them by spreading rumors and lies?... Well the answer is you are lost. I have my children who I adore and love my husband who sometimes struggles to understand me and where I am coming from. I am a 36 year old woman who has no friends and who was on a path of strength until someone took that away leaving with them a path of utter destruction.
Something as silly as having dreads that I have wanted for so long are now gone due to having no strength left to be myself when my mother will be here in just a few weeks. She will be here to tell me where I have gone wrong, how fat and loathsome I am and how I am doing wrong by my family by not having a career, job and having had too may kids!
My husband asked me to give him 2 positive things about myself... Through many tears I was unable to give him one. He was right when he said I could give him 50 or more negative things about myself... I could probably give him more. This is not my feeble attempt at playing a victim I am not one or at least do not see myself as one, I have a past just like everyone else, it is not a good one, but I am just unable to see any positive anymore. I wonder if I was ever able to.
To top it all off I have been seriously ill for about 6 months or more. As much as I want to live a holistic, western medicine free life right now I am unable which is like kicking a person when they are already down. It is a do or die situation!
I am trying to see the positive here but right now am unable. One day I may I just hope it is sooner rather than later as I am unsure how much more I can take.
Life goes on right... Where are my rainbows could do with one!
Tomorrow is a new day! Trying to look up!
Something as silly as having dreads that I have wanted for so long are now gone due to having no strength left to be myself when my mother will be here in just a few weeks. She will be here to tell me where I have gone wrong, how fat and loathsome I am and how I am doing wrong by my family by not having a career, job and having had too may kids!
My husband asked me to give him 2 positive things about myself... Through many tears I was unable to give him one. He was right when he said I could give him 50 or more negative things about myself... I could probably give him more. This is not my feeble attempt at playing a victim I am not one or at least do not see myself as one, I have a past just like everyone else, it is not a good one, but I am just unable to see any positive anymore. I wonder if I was ever able to.
To top it all off I have been seriously ill for about 6 months or more. As much as I want to live a holistic, western medicine free life right now I am unable which is like kicking a person when they are already down. It is a do or die situation!
I am trying to see the positive here but right now am unable. One day I may I just hope it is sooner rather than later as I am unsure how much more I can take.
Life goes on right... Where are my rainbows could do with one!
Tomorrow is a new day! Trying to look up!
Monday, December 31, 2012
POSITIVE
Positive changes are happening here.
It is a new year so a new name for my blog was needed. My old name just was no longer fitting me or my life. I am not sure that it ever did.
I have thought long and hard about my new blog name "Tree of Rainbows" this name came to me by everything that has happened in my life recently. I have had to make some life changing decisions as to my health and the Tree of Life has become the center point of my being.
"The meaning of life is not to be discovered only after death in some hidden, mysterious realm; on the contrary, it can be found by eating the succulent fruit of the Tree of Life and by living in the here and now as fully and creatively as we can" - Paul Kurtz
I could not have said that better my self.
As for Rainbows, they are healers in their own right. I don't believe I have ever looked at a rainbow and not felt just pure joy and not just stared at it's amazing beauty. They are uplifting they can heal some of the darkest days. They always seem to show when a person needs them the most.
So here is to a wonderful year sharing light and love. Honor each other and lift each other up, live each day like it maybe your last, no one knows how long each of us have on this planet so lets make it beautiful one!
It is a new year so a new name for my blog was needed. My old name just was no longer fitting me or my life. I am not sure that it ever did.
I have thought long and hard about my new blog name "Tree of Rainbows" this name came to me by everything that has happened in my life recently. I have had to make some life changing decisions as to my health and the Tree of Life has become the center point of my being.
"The meaning of life is not to be discovered only after death in some hidden, mysterious realm; on the contrary, it can be found by eating the succulent fruit of the Tree of Life and by living in the here and now as fully and creatively as we can" - Paul Kurtz
I could not have said that better my self.
As for Rainbows, they are healers in their own right. I don't believe I have ever looked at a rainbow and not felt just pure joy and not just stared at it's amazing beauty. They are uplifting they can heal some of the darkest days. They always seem to show when a person needs them the most.
So here is to a wonderful year sharing light and love. Honor each other and lift each other up, live each day like it maybe your last, no one knows how long each of us have on this planet so lets make it beautiful one!
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